Abigail Wiles

Abigail was a much wanted baby. the previous year we had been pregnent with twins at first it was a
big shock but then we were so pleased two babies to love. we had a scan and found out i was only 8
weeks. we had another scan at 11 weeks only to be told that the twins were in the same sac which is
called monocronic monamniotic which means that they could have been conjoined . the trouble with
this is that the babies cords were getting twisted as there was nothing seperating them so therfore
starving each other of oxygen. we were sent to kings and saw dr Nicoladis kyprios a truly great man.
we could have proceeded with the pregnancy but the dr said i was sitting on a time bomb and that it
was a small chance the babies would survive and if they did they would be mentally and physically
disabled. i didnt want to lose my babies but new it was for the best they would have had no quality
of life. we decided to terminate i was 11 weeks and 2 days. it was heart breaking my much wanted
babies were gone. we decided to try again for another baby and fell almost 6 months later. we had
lots of scans with Abigail and all was going well. As you can imagine i was very anxious but so
excited i had a wonderful pregnancy. then the night of 29th aug came . i went to bed feeling ok but
then started to get pains I was 36 weeks and 6 days so i thought i was going into labour. the pains
lasted about 2-3 hours then i went to the toilet and blood went everywhere. Still not knowing that
anything was wrong i thought that it might be my waters breaking i called the midwife who said i
should go straight to hosp. an ambulance came and as i went to stand my legs just buckled. i was put
in a wheelchair and taken to hosp with my husband we just thought that we were going to have our
baby that night. whwn we got to hosp they scanned me and the nurse said she cant find the heart beat
but i had only felt Abigail kicking me that afternoon. by now i was in so much pain . another doc
came in and confirmed that our baby had died. i went completly calm and insisted on a c section .
they took me to theatre and delivered my beautiful baby girl she had pure white skin red curly hair
and weighed 5lb 1 oz it was now 7 am in the morning . when i came out of recovery all our families
were there so we all got to hold touch and kiss Abigail i just wish i had longer with her. we took
photos and have her foot and hand print and i keep a photo next to my bed so i know she is watching
over me.we thought we had had all the bad luck with the twins but then for this to happen turned our
world upside down. when i got home all the baby stuff was in the house as you can imagine i was well
prepared for our new arrival. so i had the task of packing everything away.a friend helped me put it
all away in boxes i didnt want to throw anything . we kept all the stuff at our parents houses
because i wanted to use it if we had another baby. i have since had 2 children isabelle who is
nearly 4 and Oliver who is 7 months they have both had the clothes pram toys and things i had for
abigail and im pleased i kept them. at Abigails funeral we played somewhere over the rainbow and we
have it on a couple of toys and isabelle always says that this is Abigails song. i want them to know
they had a sister and that they have a guardian angel watching over them . time is suppose to be a
healer but for me it stills feels like yesterday. i love you Abigail and miss you so much. . THE
ANGEL IN THE BOOK OF LIFE WROTE DOWN MY BABIES BIRTH......AND WHISPERED AS SHE CLOSED THE BOOK TOO
BEAUTIFUL FOR EARTH
THANK YOU TO EVERY ONE FOR CANDLES AND MESSAGES IT MEANS SO MUCH TO ME .