| Location | London |
| Age | 0 |
| Cause of Death | Still Birth |
| Date of Birth | 30/08/2003 |
| Date of Death | 30/08/2003 |
| Visitors | 1,951 since 10/08/2008 |
| Creator |
Abigail was a much wanted baby. the previous year we had been pregnent with twins at first it was a
big shock but then we were so pleased two babies to love. we had a scan and found out i was only 8
weeks. we had another scan at 11 weeks only to be told that the twins were in the same sac which is
called monocronic monamniotic which means that they could have been conjoined . the trouble with
this is that the babies cords were getting twisted as there was nothing seperating them so therfore
starving each other of oxygen. we were sent to kings and saw dr Nicoladis kyprios a truly great man.
we could have proceeded with the pregnancy but the dr said i was sitting on a time bomb and that it
was a small chance the babies would survive and if they did they would be mentally and physically
disabled. i didnt want to lose my babies but new it was for the best they would have had no quality
of life. we decided to terminate i was 11 weeks and 2 days. it was heart breaking my much wanted
babies were gone. we decided to try again for another baby and fell almost 6 months later. we had
lots of scans with Abigail and all was going well. As you can imagine i was very anxious but so
excited i had a wonderful pregnancy. then the night of 29th aug came . i went to bed feeling ok but
then started to get pains I was 36 weeks and 6 days so i thought i was going into labour. the pains
lasted about 2-3 hours then i went to the toilet and blood went everywhere. Still not knowing that
anything was wrong i thought that it might be my waters breaking i called the midwife who said i
should go straight to hosp. an ambulance came and as i went to stand my legs just buckled. i was put
in a wheelchair and taken to hosp with my husband we just thought that we were going to have our
baby that night. whwn we got to hosp they scanned me and the nurse said she cant find the heart beat
but i had only felt Abigail kicking me that afternoon. by now i was in so much pain . another doc
came in and confirmed that our baby had died. i went completly calm and insisted on a c section .
they took me to theatre and delivered my beautiful baby girl she had pure white skin red curly hair
and weighed 5lb 1 oz it was now 7 am in the morning . when i came out of recovery all our families
were there so we all got to hold touch and kiss Abigail i just wish i had longer with her. we took
photos and have her foot and hand print and i keep a photo next to my bed so i know she is watching
over me.we thought we had had all the bad luck with the twins but then for this to happen turned our
world upside down. when i got home all the baby stuff was in the house as you can imagine i was well
prepared for our new arrival. so i had the task of packing everything away.a friend helped me put it
all away in boxes i didnt want to throw anything . we kept all the stuff at our parents houses
because i wanted to use it if we had another baby. i have since had 2 children isabelle who is
nearly 4 and Oliver who is 7 months they have both had the clothes pram toys and things i had for
abigail and im pleased i kept them. at Abigails funeral we played somewhere over the rainbow and we
have it on a couple of toys and isabelle always says that this is Abigails song. i want them to know
they had a sister and that they have a guardian angel watching over them . time is suppose to be a
healer but for me it stills feels like yesterday. i love you Abigail and miss you so much. . THE
ANGEL IN THE BOOK OF LIFE WROTE DOWN MY BABIES BIRTH......AND WHISPERED AS SHE CLOSED THE BOOK TOO
BEAUTIFUL FOR EARTH
THANK YOU TO EVERY ONE FOR CANDLES AND MESSAGES IT MEANS SO MUCH TO ME .
missing you
to my darling abigail been thinking about you lots. mummy is giong to see a spirit next week and i am hoping you come to me in some way, just so i know your ok and happy. i love and miss you darling soooooo much . sleep tight angel till we meet ... x x x x x x mummyx x x x x x
----HAPPY NEW YEAR
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When tomorrow starts without me
And I'm not there to see;
If the sun should rise and find your eyes
All filled with tears for me;
I wish so much you wouldn't cry
The way you did today
While thinking of the many things
We didn't get to say.
I know how much you love me,
As much as I love you.
And each time that you think of me
I know you'll miss me too.
But when tomorrow starts without me
Please try to understand,
That an angel came and called my name
And took me by the hand.
If we could bring you back again,
For one more hour or day,
We’d express all our unspoken love;
We’d have countless things to say.
If we could bring you back again,
We’d say we treasured you,
And that your presence in our lives
Meant more than we ever knew.
If we could bring you back again,
To tell you what we should,
You’d know how much we miss you now,
And if we could, we would.
Our memories build a special bridge
When loved ones have to part.
To help us feel we're with them still
And soothe a grieving heart.
Our memories span the years we shared,
Preserving ties that bind.
They build a special bridge of love
And bring us peace of mind.
As New Year approaches
It seems harder this time of year
We miss you so much more
The only thing that gets us through
Are the memories of before
So here's a card just for you
To show how much we care
I know your waiting with the angels
One day I'll see you there.
Thoughts Today Memories Forever
Angela(Christopher-John Rowe)Mum
I would like to thank everyone for all the candles, tributes gifts and kind words they have left on Christopher’s website I appreciate every single one.
I would also like to wish you all A Happy New Year & my best wishes for 2009.
Angela X
New Years Day
missing you
to my darling abigail its nearly christmas and im missing you so much. i picked up your flowers today and we are coming over to see you tommorow. i wish you were here this will be the sixth christmas without you and i wish you were here to share it with us. i love you my angel keep us safe darling . hugs and kisses angel till we meet in heaven. x x x x x your loving mummy x x x x x x
This Tribute Is For This Weekend A Little Longer Than Usual. Sorry It's So Early I've Got A Busy Weekend Ahead
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I will light my candles as usual on Sunday
Our memories build a special bridge
When loved ones have to part.
To help us feel we're with them still
And soothe a grieving heart.
Our memories span the years we shared,
Preserving ties that bind.
They build a special bridge of love
And bring us peace of mind.
When tomorrow starts without me
And I'm not there to see;
If the sun should rise and find your eyes
All filled with tears for me;
I wish so much you wouldn't cry
The way you did today
While thinking of the many things
We didn't get to say.
I know how much you love me,
As much as I love you.
And each time that you think of me
I know you'll miss me too.
But when tomorrow starts without me
Please try to understand,
That an angel came and called my name
And took me by the hand.
If tears could build a stairway,
And memories were a lane,
We would walk right up to heaven
And bring you back again.
Our hearts still ache in sadness
And secret tears still flow.
What it meant to lose you
No one can ever know.
But now we know you want us
To mourn for you no more.
To remember all the happy times,
Life still has much in store.
Since you'll never be forgotten,
We pledge to you today:
A hallowed place within our hearts
Is where you'll always stay.
A million times we've needed you,
A million times we've cried.
If love could have saved you,
You never would have died.
In life we loved you dearly,
In death we love you still.
In our hearts you hold a place
No one will ever fill.
It broke our hearts to lose you
But you didn't go alone.
Part of us went with you
The day God took you home.
Thoughts Today, Memories Forever
Angela (Christopher-John Rowe) Mum
HAVE A GOOD WEEKEND EVERYONE
Our Lives changed, the very moment you passed away.
We couldn't stop it; there was nothing we could say.
You've touched our lives so deeply to a point you will never know,
We try to think about you when we are feeling down and low.
Sometimes when our day gets hard we will think about your beautiful smile
And if we listen hard enough we will hear your voice after a while.
It's you who give us a reason to go on with our day,
And now if we want to see you we'll bow our heads and pray.
We catch ourselves looking for you still, in the halls and at the front door,
But when we call your name there is no reply any more!
We never thought a day would come where we would be apart,
God has you in his keepings, we have you in our hearts.
Life will go on, but never will be the same,
Your beautiful smile is gone, but it will always remain.
You're our angel from up above.
You'll always be missed, but most importantly... loved.
Just one more minute, God, is all we ask- why can't you give them back;
It seems like such a simple task. We guess people are right when they say God only takes the best,
We know enough now that you're peacefully at rest.
X X X X X X X X X X X X X X X X X X X X X X X X X X
You can shed tears that they are gone,
Or you can smile because they lived,
You can close your eyes and pray that they will come back,
Or you can open your eyes and see all that they have left.
Your heart can be empty because you can't see them
Or you can be full of the love that you shared,
You can turn your back on tomorrow and live yesterday,
Or you can be happy for tomorrow because of yesterday.
You can remember them and only that they are gone
Or you can cherish the memory and let it live on,
You can cry and close your mind be empty and turn your back,
Or you can do what they would want: smile, open your eyes, love and go on.
X X X X X X X X X X X X X X X X X X X X X X X X X X
I'm writing this from heaven, where I dwell with God above.
Where there's no more tears or sadness, there's just eternal love.
Please do not be unhappy because I am out of sight
Remember that I am with you every morning, noon and night.
And I will stay beside you, every day, week and year
And when you're sad I'll still be there to wipe away your tears.
When you think of my life on earth and all those living years
Because your only human their bound to bring you tears.
But do not be afraid to cry it does relieve the pain
Remember there wouldn't be flowers unless we first had rain.
I wish I could tell you of all that God has planned
But even if I were able to, you wouldn't understand.
When your going down the street and you've got me on your mind
I'm walking in your footsteps and only half a step behind.
And if you feel a gentle breeze or wind upon your face
Remember it's only me with a loving and soft embrace.
X X X X X X X X X X X X X X X X X X X X X X X X X X
Thoughts Today Memories Forever
Angela(Christopher-John Rowe)Mum
HAVE A GOOD WEEKEND EVERYONE
Our Lives changed, the very moment you passed away.
We couldn't stop it; there was nothing we could say.
You've touched our lives so deeply to a point you will never know,
We try to think about you when we are feeling down and low.
Sometimes when our day gets hard we will think about your beautiful smile
And if we listen hard enough we will hear your voice after a while.
It's you who give us a reason to go on with our day,
And now if we want to see you we'll bow our heads and pray.
We catch ourselves looking for you still, in the halls and at the front door,
But when we call your name there is no reply any more!
We never thought a day would come where we would be apart,
God has you in his keepings, we have you in our hearts.
Life will go on, but never will be the same,
Your beautiful smile is gone, but it will always remain.
You're our angel from up above.
You'll always be missed, but most importantly... loved.
Just one more minute, God, is all we ask- why can't you give them back;
It seems like such a simple task. We guess people are right when they say God only takes the best,
We know enough now that you're peacefully at rest.
X X X X X X X X X X X X X X X X X X X X X X X X X X
You can shed tears that they are gone,
Or you can smile because they lived,
You can close your eyes and pray that they will come back,
Or you can open your eyes and see all that they have left.
Your heart can be empty because you can't see them
Or you can be full of the love that you shared,
You can turn your back on tomorrow and live yesterday,
Or you can be happy for tomorrow because of yesterday.
You can remember them and only that they are gone
Or you can cherish the memory and let it live on,
You can cry and close your mind be empty and turn your back,
Or you can do what they would want: smile, open your eyes, love and go on.
X X X X X X X X X X X X X X X X X X X X X X X X X X
I'm writing this from heaven, where I dwell with God above.
Where there's no more tears or sadness, there's just eternal love.
Please do not be unhappy because I am out of sight
Remember that I am with you every morning, noon and night.
And I will stay beside you, every day, week and year
And when you're sad I'll still be there to wipe away your tears.
When you think of my life on earth and all those living years
Because your only human their bound to bring you tears.
But do not be afraid to cry it does relieve the pain
Remember there wouldn't be flowers unless we first had rain.
I wish I could tell you of all that God has planned
But even if I were able to, you wouldn't understand.
When your going down the street and you've got me on your mind
I'm walking in your footsteps and only half a step behind.
And if you feel a gentle breeze or wind upon your face
Remember it's only me with a loving and soft embrace.
X X X X X X X X X X X X X X X X X X X X X X X X X X X
Thoughts Today Memories Forever
Angela(Christopher-John Rowe)Mum
Have A Good Weekend Everyone
This Tribute Is For Friday Got Busy Day Tomorrow
♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥
When tomorrow starts without me
And I'm not there to see;
If the sun should rise and find your eyes
All filled with tears for me;
I wish so much you wouldn't cry
The way you did today
While thinking of the many things
We didn't get to say.
I know how much you love me,
As much as I love you.
And each time that you think of me
I know you'll miss me too.
But when tomorrow starts without me
Please try to understand,
That an angel came and called my name
And took me by the hand.
♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥
I looked towards the clouds today
And for a moment saw your face.
I wondered just where you have gone
With hope it's a better place.
Did you show yourself to me today,
To tell me you're all right?
Or was it just a daydream
Playing tricks upon my sight?
We will always feel the void inside
Because you are not here.
But each new thought you send our way
Lets us know you're near.
So until our journey nears its end
And we hear the angels sing,
We'll face each new day as it comes
And live off the love you bring.
♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥
Life is but a stopping place,
A pause in what's to be,
A resting place along the road,
To sweet eternity.
We all have different journeys,
Different paths along the way,
We are all meant to learn some things,
But never meant to stay.
Our destination is a place,
Far greater than we know,
For some the journey's quicker,
For some the journey's slow.
But when the journey finally ends,
We'll claim a great reward,
And find an everlasting peace,
Together with the Lord.
♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥
Thoughts Today Memories Forever
Angela(Christopher-John Rowe)Mum
Your beautiful Abigail
I am so very sorry for the loss of your perfect little princess. I read your page, you are so brave and Abigail is so lucky to have a loving mummy like you.Rest in peace little Abigailx Take carexxxxxxxx
xXx With Love xXx
~ Somewhere Over The Rainbow ~
Beyond the rain...
Somewhere over the rainbow,
Way up high...
There's a land that I heard of ...
Once in a lullaby.
Oh yes...Heaven is a beautiful place,
And I thank God for that everyday...
I know He is with me and guiding me...
As I continue my journey today.
Just like the twister in the Wizard of Oz,
The nightmare came and tore my world apart...
So this long and lonely journey called grief,
Has left me with a broken heart.
Dorothy's journey continued over the rainbow...
So has my child's...just a little past beyond...
The Wizard of Oz and grief have so much in common...
And so the story and my journey continue on...
Some days this journey seems long and winding,
Just like the Yellow Brick Road,
Sometimes I feel I have lost my way...
And feel like I'm carrying such a heavy load.
Just Like Dorothy met the Scarecrow...the Cowardly Lion..
and the Tin Man... as she went along her way...
I too have met many compassionate people along my way...
But I have also lost just as many who shied away.
Just like the Scarecrow wanted a brain...
I think I could use a bigger one too...
To hold my memories of sweet yesterdays...
And remember everything she used to do.
Just like the Tin Man wanted a heart...
I think I could use a new one too...
As mine is broken in a million pieces...
Some days I just don't know what to do.
Like the Cowardly Lion who wanted some courage,
I too want some courage....to help me climb this hill...
To help me keep moving through this world of grief,
When the whole world seems to be standing still.
When the poppy flowers made Dorothy tired...
The Scarecrow was going to pull her along...
I too need friends to be by my side...
To listen and help me be strong.
If only this story was true,
And my child could click her shoes three times or four..
And say there's no place like home...
And she would be back in my arms once more.
If only I could also wake up from this bad dream,
And go back in time...
And have my child here once more...
And leave this thing called grief behind.
But since life is not a fairy tale...
And my wishes cannot come true,
We will remember her and all that she was,
My beautiful child...I will always love you.
Yes, my child is somewhere over the rainbow,
Way up high...
In a place that I heard of...
Once in a lullaby. xXx
missing you
hi baby girl . missing you terribly i hope your playing happily with all the other angels . i wish i could have just one last cuddle with you. look over us darling . x x
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